The Legacy of Being Left

I'm still struggling. Suddenly I'm a single mom.  Suddenly my life is turned upside down.  Suddenly it's been four months.  Every minute of every day is sometimes a challenge for me.  There are days where I honestly think that I'm finally ok and then for some reason, no reason actually, I know that I'm not.  I realize that I'm a role model for my girls, that how I handle things now will show them so many things.  I want to show them that women can be strong, but I also want to show them that loosing someone that you have loved can make you weak, and that crying is ok.  Being sad is ok.  I want them to see me be sad and then see me stand up.  I want them to know that if they are going to love, to love 100% to throw their entire heart and soul into it.  That being hurt is part of it, and that they too will survive heartbreak.   

I want them to know without a doubt that I have tried, that I did and still do love, and that letting go was not what I wanted, but loving someone enough to make choices you don't agree with is ok.

Those are my hopes for my girls.