Happy Anniversary?

Wow, a year already.  It's been quite the year to say the least.  A year ago tonight reality bitch slapped me across the face.  A year ago tonight I received, in rapid fire succession, a series of phone calls that would ultimately change my life, and my girls lives...forever.

I honestly remember very little about this past year.  I acted on instinct most of the time, and when I couldn't function I had people around me that would function for me.  I've been told that I've done it, that I've survived, that I made it through.  I suppose that I have.  I know I'm a stronger person for all that's happened.  I know that I'm the me that I'm supposed to be.  I realize that I have gone through something and come out the other side.  The odd thing is, I don't see any of that as being amazing.  I did what I had to do given the circumstances.  I didn't see that I had any choice in the matter but to go forward...and I had a path to choose.  

I'm honestly not sure how I feel about today.  I hope that I can soon forget that December 12 was the time I found out.  I never want to forget that it happened, I'd just like that day to be a memory....fuzzy....lost in time....